It is astonishing how something which you thought you had buried can still come back to haunt you. The Commonwealth Games started almost two weeks ago and I was glued to the screen, listening to the action through the left earbud of my headphones, one eye on my work screen and one eye on the… Continue reading 18 months on and the Commonwealth Games
I haven’t written for a while - and that’s not deliberate. I haven’t had anything worth saying of late. Often the stresses of London cause me to find a distraction to the misery I feel sometimes. I convince myself I’m too busy for internal thought or I deserve an extra pint down at the pub… Continue reading The Dream Disillusion – Is the Outcome the ‘Do or Die’ of your Dream?
I recently immersed myself back into swimming. After seven months out of the water, I finally decided it was time to familiarise myself with it again. It was not easy, neither were the emotions I felt swimming again. My first thought was a feeling of bliss. It quickly followed by the realisation that my strength… Continue reading Reflections of An Athletic Career 9 Months On
Open your eyes. I have had my eyes tightly shut for too long. Swimming was my passion, but also a great distraction to hide myself from myself. It was my form of escapism. But what happens when what you escape to forms your new reality, when it becomes your one and only world? You become lost. Through the years I… Continue reading What Is Your Escape Mechanism?
There come moments in your life, where a stop sign suddenly appears in front of you. It's a clear stop sign and you're at a crossroads. At this particular point I turned the ignition to stop the once, roaring engine. A roaring engine that won me my first national title in the summer of 2016… Continue reading The Ending and Aftershocks of an Athletic Career
I've been delivered the biggest blow of my swimming career. After a long 4 years of swimming up and down that black line, I finished 9th at the Olympic Trials and missed the final (a final which I finished in 3rd last year), hence ending my Rio Olympic Dream. It's thrown me into this chasm… Continue reading The Unrecognised Option
Olympic Trials is fast approaching. Training winds down. Energy levels exceed normal levels. Your body starts to feel stronger. With all these reactions unfolding, there is time for thought. My mind normally would be racing through all the possibilities that could occur. But for now and for this week, I’ve started to question again who… Continue reading The Relationship between Happiness and Success
My sister sent me two videos yesterday, one of them was the new commercial about Michael Phelps. The caption of the advert: "It is what you do in the dark that puts you into the light". I love that statement and the commercial too, but this blog isn’t centred on it. The second video was… Continue reading Sacrifice V Choice
I failed my driving test today for the second time. It doesn’t matter how, but it got me thinking that maybe it happened for a reason. Maybe, it finally got me to start this blog - and so it has. As I was driving back after the test, I remember thinking, “I’m a failure”, “I’ve… Continue reading The Most Underrated Word of the 21st Century